Moments

there are moments in our lives
when you are feeling so down
so depress that
nothing seems to make you smile
no amount of wealth
can make you jump with joy
even the most hilarious joke
canot lift your spirits
no comfort and love from others
can replace the precious loss
there seems to be no hope
to look forward to
no anticipation for the future
when you are sitting alone by yourself
seeking solace and seclusion
reflecting on what went wrong
remedy to salvage the ruins
courage to fight the evil
strength to dodge the inflicted pain
you hold on to that most feeble thread
of hope and desperation
wish you can drift into a blissful sleep
cradle by the peaceful serenity of it
recuperating from the fatigue and worn
the pain, the loss and the suffering
escaping from the battle
the agony of being the forgotten

Say Yes...

101 lousiest pick up lines that men used..

1) excuse me, are you my primary school classmate?

2) are they real? *pointing at the boobs*

3) can i be your frenz?

4) you look familiar...

5) do you wear thongs? i dun mind g-strings too.

6) i'm loaded, do you wan to be my babe?

7) my name is james. yr name is anna? dun bluff lah.. quick tell me yr real name pls?

8) is that a skirt you are wearing?

9) i am bond. james bond.

10) wow.. u look damn chio, can i know you?? *faint*

errm...hmm.. as i have said earlier, it's 101 pick up lines, you can't expect me to write down all of them rite?

hehe. =P

Poeme from Secret Garden

first of all, i have to thanx my FRIENDLY corporate intra SPIDERMAN.

he has found poeme for me from a site on the web!!

*muack*

and yup!! that is the piece i have been trying to upload!!

anyway, no time and lazy to find out the solution for the problem in my prev prev blog.

hehe.

i think it may be due to some key issue to the track coz i have uploaded poeme from my pc in the office, which it was firstly copied from my secret garden disk onto my pc few months back.

so it contains the key (copyrites) to the track on my pc, and somehow, when i loaded it onto my briefcase to be shared out, the key was copied over too.

hmm..

juz troubleshooting. hehe.

sorrie... too much time spend on my screw up IT job, so i sound like i am working even after office hours.

for the site of the blogger, it was removed i think. canot seems to find the link. anyway the codes were as posted in the prev comments.

so... here you go again....

especially for my spiderman hero, linnie ..... and him.

Secret Garden - Poeme

Secret Garden

some how.. juz somehow.. i am sick of my current blog design again. sigh.

haha.

mebbi... juz mebbi... when i am in the rite mood and hv the time, i will change the design again.

hehe.

juz realised the damn player is not working. i have sincerely DEDICATED poeme to linnie and somehow.. juz somehow... only i can listen to the track from secret garden using my office pc.

tried from home and din work too. hehe. so secretive that no one actually manages to listen to it.

sigh.

gona add more things on my side bar.

lazy lazy to do. wana change part of the design too.

oh no... i am hungry again. needa go munch some food later.

hmm... wat theme shd i use for my next blog design?

naked men??

hmm... gona ask some of my guy frenzs to pose for me then.

slurp.

Mini Me

a frenz was juz criticizing me for who i am and what i am that day.

i am deeply affected. nobody's perfect rite? and so are you.

if everyone is so perfect, it will be no fun making new frenzs, and exploring deeper into their characters.

they are so perfect that everything that they do is expected.

i like my frenzs for who they are and wat they are.

i have frenzs, tons of them, who sucks as a frenz.

but being one myself, to be a true pal, most of the times i have to accept some shortcomings of theirs, unless they started to turn potent. that is when i run.

i speak loudly in conversation, coz i dun wan you to miss out any single details in my life, and to share every single moment i have been thru with you.

i intercept when you speak, coz i am excited to see you, and am afraid of forgeting wat i have been dying to tell you.

i am pessimistic, coz i wan to warn you, of every negative scenerios, and hidden dangers you never see.

i walked too slowly, coz i wan to spend longer moments with you, to enjoy the beautiful scenery around us.

i talk about topics that is boring to you, coz i wan to inform you of the interesting or boring events in my life, so that you can avoid or pursue such scenerios.

i am stubborn, coz of that, it is you i wan to luv and keep as a frenz.

i am not feminine, coz with you, i feel so relax, i can be in my ugliest and most comfortable self.

i stare too long at people, coz i do not want to miss out any details you have pointed out to me.

i am emotional, coz of this, i luv you too much and feel the pain you felt.

Goodbye

today is one of the saddest day in my 2005. a group of us have sent kitty off at the airport, after a farewell bbq and overnite games at justin's place. it has oso marked his last day here, after working in this small island for the last five years. each of us gave him our small wishes, and mua is the most useless. upon shaking our hands, kitty leaned forward and gave me a long hug and that was the point when the tap was turned on. hehe. this is disgraceful. well... he is after all a close colleague and like a bro to me. giving valuable advice and encouragement when i am at the lowest lowest point in my life.

seeing me trying very hard to hold my tears and nodding my head profusely to give him the assurance i will take care of myself, he gave me a worried look. hehe. so disgraceful again. he has oso lingered a few moments more to tok to us, coz all of us duno when we will see each other again. when he went into the custom area, the whole group of us waved frantically at him. penny waved so hard that she almost sprained her wrists, and xinyi's hand got entangled with her hair. *haha.. this is a joke*

juz before he was going to walk out of our sight, he stopped and lingered for a few moments more, before he finally disappeared.

hmm. i really HATE farewell. no matter how hard i try to be nonchalant, i always break down. not good to be too sentimental you know? problem is, i seems to treasure everythg and everyone around me too much sometimes. farewell like this will affect me more than anyone. well... after all, i was the only weakling who sob rite? the rest, though sad, din react as bad as me. it was so bad that i was still tearing during lunch. sigh. damn. hell no. and stupif stupif roi has to choose that time to tease me, asking me why the hell am i crying. grrr...

lin's farewell wasn't so bad coz we din see her off, and she is after all a local, so it seems like she will only be away for a period of time. wil's one was not so bad coz he will only be away for a year. but for kitty, his home is not here. so it's juz a matter of time that he will call it a day.

watever it was, it has been a good one year that we have since hanged out together for work or play. let's hope he get posted back to singapore to work, or may his wish be granted, that he gets to fly around and drop by to visit us for a day or so. like wat penny said, hope he reaps lots of money over in bangkok and buy a BIG house for the rest of us to bunk in when we go bangkok for holidays in the future.

hehe.

My Sassy Gal

finally it has hit me!!

all these while, i can't help but notice the way some gals work in the office.

they have things done and resolved without even lifting a single finger.

wow!!

been eye witnessing that but somehow, the impact is not so great as compared to today.

a female co-worker was talking to a male engineer on the phone in the sweetest sweetest and most most luving manner today.

'.. harlowww... weii? where are youu-woo .... canot find you in office nehh... need youuuu to help me yyahhhh........'

*ok i have already tried my best imitating the conversation as accurately as i can*

WOW!! gosh!!

soo alluring....!

the tone, volumn and tune of her voice varies between 1 to a few hundred decibel and pitch.

*whistle*

and she always strike a very womanly and sexy posture, specially thrusting out her butts.

*wolf cries*

am i being conservative?

perhaps the rest of the singapore and not juz my office, gals and women have been doing that for centuries to the male species around me?

talking and cooing them in the most gentle and innocent girlish tone.

blinking their big lovey dovey eyes at the testosterone lot.

fluttering their long lashes at the big guys making their hearts melt and thus extending their helping hands.

for me, i will only talk to my bf in such a manner, and probably end up sounding more pitiful than seductive.

anyway.... juz sucks.

i am no good with man.

*from the above dialogue re-enacted, you shd get what i mean*

perhaps all these times, i have been disapproving of such obnoxious means to get things done, or have things done your way?

and i wana achieve success thru true capabilities?

hiak! no wonder i never get promoted!!

now i know! i know!! i know!!!

i never show enuff LEGS to the men!!!




no wonder.....

and thus canot complete ten tasks more than my peers.

and ..... and ..... i get it!!!

from next week onwards, i shall stuff paddings to push my bossoms further up.

i will NEVER leave my house without makeup.

and sway my hips more vigourously when i walk.

talk to the men in a more seductive manner.

and always curl my body in a cat-like posture.... hmm... even when sitting on the toilet bowl....

hehe.

errmm... or should i bare my midriff to the world as well?

I Wish

juz read thru lin's latest blog.

am so envious. her relationship in the past is so earth shattering, so sweet.

i canot help but envy. again. recently i seem to envy the people around me so much.

of their lives, wonderful jobs, luving bf, hubby, families, frenzs, guy frenzs who seems especially nice to them even when they know they hv bf.....

when i see young famlies together, i marvel at them.

when i see mothers chasing after their running and noisy kids, i envy them.

haha.

the list juz goes on.

her ex-luv is soo sweet to her. standing up to her defence. having faith in her. trusting her. not believing the bad thing people said about her. seeing her as the best thing that has ever happened in his life.

i am so so envious.

i wish he has described to me about his house in details over there. or at least his room.

i wish he will tell me how much he misses me.

i wish he will stand up and speak up for me when i am being maligned.

i wish i am still the best in his eyes.

i wish he will send me cards and letters to tell me he aches for me.

i wish the happy moments can last longer.

i wish i have stories like that to tell my frenzs too.

i wish he will tell me wherever he is, he will still miss me. and luv me.

i wish.

(",)

Sesame Street is Here!

yes!! sesame street is here!!

irene went to the performance with her kids, and took a few pictures of the show.

here's the pictures she sent to me.

hmm... will try to make it down this week to watch the show.

problem is, i'll have to fight with the rest of the little audiences there.

so embarrassing. hehe.

Farewell My frenzs

another two persons farewell in the office today.

kitty is back from bangkok. finally.

he is clearing his last bit of his personal belongings in the office.

we are so sad to see him leave.

seanie, meow and mua have been waiting for him to come back home.

i, personally, have missed him very much too.

kitty has been my lunch pal, tea and even dinner pal.

he, sean and i always hanged out together for dinner, coz both of them lived alone in a foreign land.

sometimes when we are bored when weekend arrived, the rest of the group will go out for a movie or clubbing session at M Sultan.

this week, a few other engineers have also left the department.

i did a count juz the other day.

from last year till now, so many colleagues have resigned.

they are the young, hippie and fun loving workmates i have enjoyed being with besides work.

most have become almost like a frenz than workmate over the years.

really miss those times, when we went to the co organised events, dinners, meetings and always end up cracking stupid jokes among us.

though i will not meet them everyday now, but i do hope they are doing well in the greener pastures, and we can continue to met outside office for fun after work!

so before i end this blog, and if you happen to be one of those who have left....

erm... can i pass my resume to yer??

hehe.

Poeme

alrite!! finally!! i have managed to upload a music file onto my blog!!

phew!!

specially dedicated this song to lin!!

you have been asking me how does poeme from secret garden sounds like?

this is it!!

here's poeme from secret garden, the piece from secret garden i have mentioned in my blog few months back.

enjoy.

Secret Garden - Poeme

Rush Hour

for a long long time, i have not been in the office soooo EARLY!!

now i know.

there's nobody in the office except boss and few managers at EIGHT AM in the morning.

the whole place is dead. silence.

come to think of it, it's not bad coming in so early after all, provided you can wake up in time.

hehe.

coz you can do anything you want and nobody knows.

*now i wonder what thoses manager have been doing in the office so early in the morning*

yippee!!!!

Ten things i can make it to work scaringly early in the morning:

i dozed off in middle of my work and slept overnight in the office the previous day.

lurk me with a big bowl of curry chicken, fried noodles, ice cream waffles, nasi lemak etc on my table every morning, so that i will want to arrive early.

all early comers will have a reward of $100 for each early morning.

i live upstairs above my office.

i stayed overnight in the office after a clubbing session.

i drive a ferrari to work.

my future hubby drives me to work.

i have a early sickening meeting at 8am.

i canot sleep at nite.

i have hunks who look like takashi kaneshiro, daniel wu, brad pitt, jude law, micheal vartan etc in my office.

hehe.

Excuse Me? Are you a Job Seeker?

nowadays it is the employers' job market. if you are looking for a job now, you are in for a hard time.

from employers to human resource agents, they are a mad bunch in today's society.

they dun make things difficult for you. they make things extremely difficult for you. they are mad! they are crazy!! they are lunatic!!!!

an ex-uni classmate was juz whining about how difficult it is to find a job nowadays.

some interviewers will gave you a written test on the spot to test your knowledge. such test can stretch as long as 20 pages. if you do not finish it by the time permits, fire alarm will ring and water will be gushed out of the ceiling.

*hehe... this is a joke*

some will test you verbally. if you failed to give the correct answer, you will be sneered and criticized at inside that stuffy room. for worst cases, you might be taken out of the room and be shot.

*hehe... this is also a joke*

some interviews will consists of a panel of seven or more interviewers to bombard you with questions in all aspects of life, even when you are only applying for the most junior post or cleaner post in the company.

nowadays, before you even get to the hiring co, there is a pre-round by the hiring agents.

another ex-colleague was telling me the other day that once she was criticized by an hiring agent for bringing a plastic bag for a short interview with her, and she wasn't even from the hiring co.

some nasty agents, will be falling back on what little knowledge they know about your industry, and started flaunting their knowledge and criticized you for your lack of experience or knowledge.

what the hell...

the job seekers are the pathetic lots. hiring companies juz cut, cut and CUT.

there is no training provided, no OT claims provided, some ridiculous co even have only ten days of annual leaves.

and if you are called up for a permanent post, you have struck toto.

most co only have contract jobs that lasted one year or three months.

in the past, to compensate for the instability of contracts jobs, you are offered a higher pay. now they gave you a perm post pay but you are told it is a contract post, leaving you with no buffer for retrenchment.

no bonus, no aws, min annual leave, no shares option, no medical claims, no maternity leave but you are expected to toil for the co.

pathetic.

another frenz of mine in IT, is willing to give up all the standard market rates coded when the economy is in good times, but he was rejected due to lack of experience.

when you have the knowledge of a required field, they want the exact system.

when you have the system, they want the relevant environment.

when you have the environment, they want the specific modules.

when you have it all, they want the prog languages.

when you have the prog languages, they want more prog languages.

when you have more languages, they want you to speak jap or korean.

when you can speak a third language, they told you 'sorry, management has cut the budget. we are not hiring anymore....'

.............................

I feel we are so socially abused.

or mebbi we, the supposedly more educated lots from the uni or polys, have higher expectations?

juz few months back, the toilet cleaning lady was telling us that she has found a greener pasture and leaving the co.

wow!! i am IMPRESSED!

but i do know, you have to answer the right questions at the right time at the right place.


some guidelines to the answers to be given at the interview for various occupations:

Qn1: what makes you apply for this job?

engineer: my mom submitted the application for me. i have no choice.

air stewardess: fly!! i like to fly!! i luv to fly!! i want to fly with the birds!!

bimbo secretary: eh?? can you spell 'apply'?

fireman: i want to serve my people. i want to serve my community!!


Qn2: what are your strengths and weaknesses?

engineer: erm... trouble shooting? weakness... ermmm .....................

air stewardess: my strenght is that i can boil a kettle of water in one hour. my weakness is that i am afraid of ants, bees, houseflies, dragonflies,......

bimbo secretary: can you wait? i need to ask my boyfriend.

fireman: my strenghts are my muscles. i have NO weaknesses.


Q3: What is your expected pay?

engineer: oh.. very little. anything less than 200k but 100k per annum is good enuff.

air stewardess: pay? oh!! they actually pay me to travel all over the world?!!

bimbo secretary: err....ermm...ah... can i answer that question tomolo?

fireman: pay? what pay? what audacity?! how can you insulted me?! i wan to be a hero! a serivce to the people! i shall demand NO PAY !!


the above are juz meant for your reading pleasures. if you have really followed as per instructed, you are my hero.

Four Hrs at a Wedding & a Funeral

Tonite I have attended a wedding dinner with mom and dad, with a red patch above my lips from an allergy.

Grr...

Aunt annie's eldest son is tying the knot finally. She and her younger sister are very close family frenzs, almost like sisters to mom, and watched me grow up.

Aunt annie has finally get to enjoy life. Not only have her two sons grown up, she is now having a daughter in law as well.

Her boyfriend has abandoned her and the two sons years ago, and she has painstakingly brought up the two boys all by herself.

I feel very happy for her now that the worst is over.

Her eldest son was also my very first boss years ago, after I have graduated from A levels.

He is a very patient and kind young man, who never doubt or stress me on any work he gave me.

I remembered trying to murmur whatever little voice from my throat when i recieved my first phone call, and he has shown me much understanding and gave me lots of encouragement being on the first job in my entire life.

Seeing him at the dinner, I was thrilled and gave him my best wishes.

Sometimes, I hate attending such dinner, especially with lots of family frenzs and relatives.

Not only the uncles and aunties will fuss over me coz i have grown up, and supposedly prettier compared to my boney frame when I was young, my mom will be fussing over me too.

At the dinner, with so many long time family frenzs and relatives around, I was at my most demure self.

Hehe.

After all I am a shy gal rite?

Then the younger son of the younger aunt came over to talk to me and mom, and gosh he was so charming! So tall and even look abit like Colin Farrell.

How come the guys in my office dun look like that? Then I will never be late for work =P

This younger son, we have known each other since young, and he has always pestered me to play with him.

At one point in time, I was even thinking he might grow up to be a sissy coz he liked to bug me to teach him crocheting when I was young. Back then I love crocheting lots of purses and doll dresses.

But of course, he did make it to be a real man. Good for him! Phew!

And of course, guess what I have enjoyed the most at the wedding tonite?

Yes!! You are rite!!!

It's none other than the FOOD!!

Have a great dinner but I have to watch my diet too.

Oops!

Anyway on the way home, I have recieved a sms from sis in law, saying that she canot join me on Sun for a shopping trip coz she needs to attend a funeral.

Sigh.

Will stay home to sleep then.

Yawn....

Miraculated

i'm have been a miraclist for six months now!
been blogging since jan this year!
have visited and read numerous sites.
the bloggers on the webs are so creative and interesting!
some of the articles they have written make me visit their sites again.
reading their daily updates of their lives
new thoughts of the day
simply keeps me occupied
hilarious posts
creative and unique thoughts
some juz go on about their nonsenses

a few frenzs and bloggers have made me addicted to their sites
not only i get updates of their lives
i am able to read their inner thoughts
and know them better too.
but there are a few who have stopped blogging.
too bad
but i do, i really do look forward to their blogs again

the designs of the webs are so impressive!
that sometimes i juz lingered at their sites to explore all the links
most of the sites did by singaporeans are very unique
with impressive animations and graphic
but for such sites
usually the content wise is not so good though
but of course there are exceptions
the blogs done by the bloggers from other countries
though the sites do not look so fanciful,
they wrote very good and reflective articles
sometimes even poems

so here's your miraclist
sprouting her daily nonsense again
till i blog again
and may you do likewise
stay tuned

- your miraclist