Changes

It's been a long time since i wrote something serious.

So much feelings and incidents to voice out but yet not sure of how to pen them down.

Juz came home after meeting Terese and Neil. I have always enjoy meeting Terese.

No pretense, no formality, no air, and best of all, she has always unknowingly reminded me that a woman can be independent on her own, and strong, even without a man by her side or if the world has juz collasped on her laps.

A true blue strong and career woman of this era, something that my alma mater has been teaching us when we were young.

She is a frenz whom I have always treasured, and was glad I was picked up by her at Redang.

Someone who dun judge me in any way, whom I can be at my most comfortable self.

Recently, I have made some new discoveries in some of the people around me, something that I have never known till I happened to hit upon some incidents even though I have known them for years.

And I am uncomfortable and disturbed at the discoveries.

Some of the frenzs I have known, have always seems like the same pals I know in school, or otherwise.

They have always been the fun loving and sincere frenzs whom I have treasured.

Recently , I have discovered that there is this dark sides in them that they will resort to various means in order to achieve at their careers, to attain the material means in life, even at the expense of the people around them.

Is it the pressures of society, or the greed of the human that spured them into what they have become now?

Have material means so important that they forgo even families, frenzs and their love ones in life?

No doubts that we can never survive without money.

And then again, how much is consider success?

Material gains is a measure of our capabilities, our visual achievements in life, but to me, having the support and love of the people around me is equally important.

After all, when I am at the lowest point in life, my love ones and frenzs are the one who will hug and console me.

When I am sick, they are the same people attending to my needs.

What is the point of owning all the gucci or porche in life when no one gives you any support when you most needed it?

Many a time, in the pursuit of material wants, we have created more trouble, more frustrations, more depressions for ourselves.

We restort to back stabbing, betrayal to the people around us.

We have become a beast who will not stop at inflicting pain to the people round us in order to achieve that tiny little success.

In the process, we have distanced ourselves from our love ones.

A guy frenz once told me that his frenz has broken off with his fiancee because he wants to achieve more in his career.

I was stunned.

I dun know if I should classified him as heartless or brainless.

Remember that at the end of the day when you come home to that mansion, you will want to see your families or kids running to you to give you a hug or a kiss, and help you forget the stress in the day, and not an empty house that further echo your loneliness in life.

Green with Envy

I envy women who are tall, who never need to tiptoe, during a rock concert.

I envy women who have big tits, who never have to worry about, buying the right bra.

I envy women, who have beautiful faces, who never have to do many tasks by themselves, coz men will be flocking to their needs eagerly.

I envy women, who are so lucky in work, that they get promotion, without doing any jobs.

I envy women, who go around spitting venom about people, and still have someone to defence their innocence.

I envy women, who have a man to luv them, have a shoulder to lean on, at their saddest moment in life.

I envy women, who have a hubby, coz they have already found someone, who will strive to provide for them, and grow old together.

I envy women, who are pregnant, coz they have a chance, to bear the child of the man they luv.

I envy women, who are so strong, that they crawl out of the abyss, and anticipate the future in the shortest possible time.

I envy women, who are borned with a silver spoon, who can drop any responsibilities at any moment, and go on to pursue their dreams.

I envy women, who have such supporting family, that they can escape from the stress in life any time, and sit idling around for the next few years.

I envy women, who have such beautiful smiles, that you feel the warmth in your heart, juz by looking at them.

I envy women, who are so popular with friends, that they are often missed, and someone to attend to their needs at all time.

I envy women, who can swim so well, that they never have to worry about drowning in the sea, when their titanic sinks.

I envy women, who have such porcelain skin, that they dun have to spend a bomb, on scrubs and creams.

I envy women, who are so charming, that people were mesmerized when they speak, and their dressed sense and mannerism being imitated.

I envy women, who are so good at handling machines, that they spent the minimal, on their driving license. hehe.

The Dentist

Oops!

Was on the way back home when I suddenly remember that I have not gone back to NUH for my orthodontics preview.

It was supposed to be scheduled in Jan this year, but till now I still have not called the clinic up to fix an appointment!

Hehe.

Anyway, dun really look forward to it.

First of all, the stupid hospital is soooo damn far away!

Secondly, to make matters worse, the bus co has scraped off the direct bus from my house to the place.

Thirdly, I am simply dragging my feet to go back to see my new dentist again.

She is my third orthodontist being assigned to me, and the fiercest of them all.

I have forgotten to bring my retainers for the checkup last year and she gave me a real big piece of her mind, practically screaming at me, and mind you, she is only a postgrad student doing her clinical training.

Mua a working professional not some small kids, and there's gotta to be better manners to handle it.

Mad woman...

Anyway, every time I think of my orthodontic treatment, I would think of my first orthodontist, Dr Yong, who followed thru' almost the whole process before he graduated from his postgrads.

This guy is a real charmer and very witty.

I was one of his first few patients.

I remembered when I first walked into the clinic, I was frightened.... almost shivering.

Those days under the lunatic nurse during my secondary school years have left a permanent and unpleasant impressions on dentists.

She has never failed to insult us on oral hygiene, and I have seen girls crying on the dentist chair from her sarcasm.

But that day when I walked into clinic two at NUH, what I saw was a small built and cheerful young man beeming brightly at me.

Not wanting to be taken by that momentarily friendliness, which I thought was juz a con (dun ask me why) after all my turmoils in school, I sat down with a faint smile and pulled on a straight face after that.

He was abit fearful of me at first seeing my aloofness, and went on to ask the necessary questions on my medical history with extreme politeness.

Hehe.

And I was wondering if his smile was really sincere as most medical and dental students struck me as arrogant.

But soon, of course, my defence broke after realising he was so witty and and indeed friendly.

We clicked so well and cracked so much jokes that in the end all the nurses and consultants in the clinic knew us and sometimes they even joined in the fun.

And this dentist of mine can be very nosey at times. So were his three coursemates.

Sometimes when we heard screams or groaning from the other cubicles, Dr Yong would be scrambling quickly to the other cubicle to it check out.

He would then come back with a satisfied smile and reveal what he has discovered.

And we thought only women are nosey!

In addition, all of them like to gossips alot too!

They would often talked about the consultants, or shared their childhood stories which always had me trembling with laughter on the chair when I overheard, and Dr Yong would have to stop for awhile for me to calm down.

And he would often teased me like a little girl even though I am a grown woman.

Many a times, when he tried to pull out the mould from my mouth, he would pretend to be unable to pluck it out full force purposely till I have mumbled a loud 'ahh...'.

One of the consultants was another guy who always make my trip an interesting one.

Consultant AK, what maeve has nicknamed him, was a very intelligent but effeminate guy.

*Now you know why my frenz gave him the initials AK*

He always have a very loud dress sense, wearing bright or cartoons ties to the clinic.

Sometimes when consultant AK was explaining all the theories to Dr Yong and his two classmates using my teeth as a reference, I would listen with them at the same time.

The consultant would always end up lecturing the materials to me too, and gave me a wide grin end of it, and all of us would burst into laughters.

Sometimes Dr Yong or his classmates would also help me choose the rubber band colors for my braces, and we ended up mixing and matching the colors together to get the effect.

Those were the great times I have at the dental clinic.

Never expect the treatment to be so fun and I always look forward to it every month.

Now I wonder how Dr Yong is doing. He should be a well qualified orthodontist now, and part of his success has been contributed by me okie (",)

Too bad he is taken, else... hehe.

Now I have to decide when shall I place the appointment with the new orthodontist, Dr Tigress.

*Moan*

If only his course lasted five years instead of three....

Grrr....

It Can't Rain All the Time

The Crow Soundtrack - It Can't Rain All The Time
by Jane Siberry


We walked the narrow path,
beneath the smoking skies.
Sometimes you can barely tell the difference
between darkness and light.
Do you have faith
in what we believe?
The truest test is when we cannot,
when we cannot see.

I hear pounding feet in the,
in the streets below, and the,
and the women crying and the,
and the children know that there,
that there's something wrong,
and it's hard to belive that love will prevail.

Oh it won't rain all the time.
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
your tears won't fall forever.

Oh, when I'm lonely,
I lie awake at night
and I wish you were here.
I miss you.
Can you tell me
is there something more to belive in?
Or is this all there is?

In the pounding feet, in the,
In the streets below, and the,
And the window breaks and,
And a woman falls, there's,
There's something wrong, it's,
It's so hard to belive that love will prevail.

Oh it won't rain all the time.
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
your tears won't fall, your tears won't fall, your tears won't fall
forever.

Last night I had a dream.
You came into my room,
you took me into your arms.
Whispering and kissing me,
and telling me to still belive.
But then the emptiness of a burning sea against which we see
our darkest of sadness.

Until I felt safe and warm.
I fell asleep in your arms.
When I awoke I cried again for you were gone.
Oh, can you hear me?

It won't rain all the time.
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
your tears won't fall forever.
It won't rain all the time
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
your tears won't fall, your tears won't fall,
your tears won't fall
forever.

Me! Me! Me!

Diplomatic and popular, the Snake has the sensual art of seduction down. Snakes have always been the seducers of human beings. If you know the story of "The White Snake", you will understand what I mean. In reality, Snake people are born charming and popular. Snakes are spotlight magnets, and they will not be ignored.

This Sign is an interesting mix of gregariousness paired with introversion, intuitive reasoning paired with savvy business skills. Snakes are considered to be lucky with money and will generally have more than enough to live life to the fullest, regardless of how important it considers money to be; this may be due to the fact that Snakes tend to be rather tight with cash. They're not stingy, they're simply more mentally than physically active. Snakes tend to hang back a bit in order to analyze a situation before jumping into it. Their charming, seductive quality actually belies a rather retiring nature; this Sign is perfectly happy to spend the whole day curled up with a good book and, thus, can be mislabeled as being lazy.

The Snake often proves irresistible and is a generous, loving partner.. Slightly dangerous and disarmingly smart, the Snake's philosophical and intuitive mind generally supersedes logic in favor of feelings and instinct. Snakes will rely on their own gut reactions and intuitions before turning to others for suggestions. This makes this Sign a great hand in any business venture, possessing the caution and smarts needed to get ahead.

Snakes are hard workers (when they see good reason to be!) and are possessed of a keen intelligence. Snakes have incredible follow-through, once they get going, and they expect the same from others. Thus, their coworkers and employees had best stay on their toes, lest they anger the Snake and suffer its poisonous bite!

Most people are secretly or hopelessly in love with Snakes. Gather those frustrated folk you know and most likely, they are probably in love with a Snake. Irresistible as they seem, the Snake never wastes time in idle gossip. They think often and deeply. They are an intellectual, a philosophers, a cerebral person.

Snake people rely heavily on first impressions, on their own feelings, on their sympathies, rather than on facts, on the advice and opinions on others. They seem to have a kind of sixth sense in this way.

In general, of course, Snakes are generous and genteel, charming and appealing. Snakes must try to learn humility and to develop a stronger sense of self. Once Snakes realize that confidence comes from within, they will finally be comfortable in their own skin.

Peer group attention and public recognition are the least of what they expect. Yet Snakes are never noisy or deliberately outspoken, and they have have excellent manners.

The Snake should stick to careers that won't involve him in any risk - even the risk of working too hard, for to tell the truth, the Snake is a bit lazy. In love, the Snake male is romantic and charming. They have a good sense of humour and the female snake is usually beautiful and successful. The Snake must be received, welcomed, accepted and approved by those with whom they come in contact with. They need a lot of security.

Their love life tends to be complicated. But if they settle down, they can become marvelous parents, creating a calm and stable atmosphere for their offspring.

Fire

People born in the years of the Fire element are born-leaders. They are decisive and confident. They are also more aggressive and positive than other natives of their particular sign. Those of you born under the influence of the Chinese Element Fire burn through life with your fierce charm, your impulsive enthusiasm and your restless emotions. A natural leader, you inspire with your decisive action and dramatic expression; people can't help but be magnetically drawn to you. Where will you lead your followers? Likely into an exciting adventure of some sort. You're instinctual, but your mind sparks with new ideas and clever solutions.

These individuals love adventure and innovation. They are constantly on the move and they like to explore new horizons.

They are true to their element and they usually attract others through their brilliance and warmth. Given to dynamic speech and action, the people ruled by the Fire element will try to dominate others with their originality and clever thinking.

They have all the requirements to be winners in life but they must be sympathetic to the views of others before taking action. The more Fire people try to achieve their goals by force, the more they will encounter obstacles. People of this element must keep a check on their emotions.

Their ambitions and forcefulness may amplify their selfishness and make them inconsiderate and impatient when they do not get what they want. It would be good for Fire persons to cultivate patience and compassion to curb their impulsive tendencies.

In love, they are highly-charged -- even combustible at times! Hot tamales to the core, these dynamic individuals can see straight to the heart of an issue and make it work for them. They may seem single-minded, but they just refuse to be swayed from a cause they believe to be important.

Do Re Mi

Dough, a bread, an otah bread
Raid, you need to run quickly
Mee, some noodles i luv to eat
Fart, a german gas that stinks
Soh, my nosey fat neighbour
Lah, a singaporean slang
Thief, the one who stole my thongs
That will bring us back to do...oh oh oh

Dough, a bread, an otah bread
Raid, you need to run quickly
Mee, some noodles i luv to eat
Fart, a german gas that stinks
Soh, my nosey fat neighbour
Lah, a singaporean slang
Thief, the one who stole my thongs
That will bring us back to Do

Dough, a bread, an otah bread
Raid, you need to run quickly
Mee, some noodles i luv to eat
Fart, a german gas that stinks
Soh, my nosey fat neighbour
Lah, a singaporean slang
Thief, the one who stole my thongs
That will bring us back to do

Do re mi fa so la ti do, so do

Angel

Artist: Sarah McLachlan
Album: Surfacing
Title: Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

Be Thankful

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire,
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something
For it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations
Because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge
Because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes
They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary
Because it means you've made a difference.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also
thankful for the setbacks.

GRATITUDE can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles and they
can become your blessings.

- Hend Mahfouz