Changes
It's been a long time since i wrote something serious.
So much feelings and incidents to voice out but yet not sure of how to pen them down.
Juz came home after meeting Terese and Neil. I have always enjoy meeting Terese.
No pretense, no formality, no air, and best of all, she has always unknowingly reminded me that a woman can be independent on her own, and strong, even without a man by her side or if the world has juz collasped on her laps.
A true blue strong and career woman of this era, something that my alma mater has been teaching us when we were young.
She is a frenz whom I have always treasured, and was glad I was picked up by her at Redang.
Someone who dun judge me in any way, whom I can be at my most comfortable self.
Recently, I have made some new discoveries in some of the people around me, something that I have never known till I happened to hit upon some incidents even though I have known them for years.
And I am uncomfortable and disturbed at the discoveries.
Some of the frenzs I have known, have always seems like the same pals I know in school, or otherwise.
They have always been the fun loving and sincere frenzs whom I have treasured.
Recently , I have discovered that there is this dark sides in them that they will resort to various means in order to achieve at their careers, to attain the material means in life, even at the expense of the people around them.
Is it the pressures of society, or the greed of the human that spured them into what they have become now?
Have material means so important that they forgo even families, frenzs and their love ones in life?
No doubts that we can never survive without money.
And then again, how much is consider success?
Material gains is a measure of our capabilities, our visual achievements in life, but to me, having the support and love of the people around me is equally important.
After all, when I am at the lowest point in life, my love ones and frenzs are the one who will hug and console me.
When I am sick, they are the same people attending to my needs.
What is the point of owning all the gucci or porche in life when no one gives you any support when you most needed it?
Many a time, in the pursuit of material wants, we have created more trouble, more frustrations, more depressions for ourselves.
We restort to back stabbing, betrayal to the people around us.
We have become a beast who will not stop at inflicting pain to the people round us in order to achieve that tiny little success.
In the process, we have distanced ourselves from our love ones.
A guy frenz once told me that his frenz has broken off with his fiancee because he wants to achieve more in his career.
I was stunned.
I dun know if I should classified him as heartless or brainless.
Remember that at the end of the day when you come home to that mansion, you will want to see your families or kids running to you to give you a hug or a kiss, and help you forget the stress in the day, and not an empty house that further echo your loneliness in life.
So much feelings and incidents to voice out but yet not sure of how to pen them down.
Juz came home after meeting Terese and Neil. I have always enjoy meeting Terese.
No pretense, no formality, no air, and best of all, she has always unknowingly reminded me that a woman can be independent on her own, and strong, even without a man by her side or if the world has juz collasped on her laps.
A true blue strong and career woman of this era, something that my alma mater has been teaching us when we were young.
She is a frenz whom I have always treasured, and was glad I was picked up by her at Redang.
Someone who dun judge me in any way, whom I can be at my most comfortable self.
Recently, I have made some new discoveries in some of the people around me, something that I have never known till I happened to hit upon some incidents even though I have known them for years.
And I am uncomfortable and disturbed at the discoveries.
Some of the frenzs I have known, have always seems like the same pals I know in school, or otherwise.
They have always been the fun loving and sincere frenzs whom I have treasured.
Recently , I have discovered that there is this dark sides in them that they will resort to various means in order to achieve at their careers, to attain the material means in life, even at the expense of the people around them.
Is it the pressures of society, or the greed of the human that spured them into what they have become now?
Have material means so important that they forgo even families, frenzs and their love ones in life?
No doubts that we can never survive without money.
And then again, how much is consider success?
Material gains is a measure of our capabilities, our visual achievements in life, but to me, having the support and love of the people around me is equally important.
After all, when I am at the lowest point in life, my love ones and frenzs are the one who will hug and console me.
When I am sick, they are the same people attending to my needs.
What is the point of owning all the gucci or porche in life when no one gives you any support when you most needed it?
Many a time, in the pursuit of material wants, we have created more trouble, more frustrations, more depressions for ourselves.
We restort to back stabbing, betrayal to the people around us.
We have become a beast who will not stop at inflicting pain to the people round us in order to achieve that tiny little success.
In the process, we have distanced ourselves from our love ones.
A guy frenz once told me that his frenz has broken off with his fiancee because he wants to achieve more in his career.
I was stunned.
I dun know if I should classified him as heartless or brainless.
Remember that at the end of the day when you come home to that mansion, you will want to see your families or kids running to you to give you a hug or a kiss, and help you forget the stress in the day, and not an empty house that further echo your loneliness in life.
a miracle struck @ * 1:51 PM * (",)
1 Comments:
"Remember that at the end of the day when you come home ... blah...blah... give you a hug or a kiss, and help you ...blah bah... your loneliness in life."
You know. I used to say this to my friends until one day a friend who comes from a poor background said...
"You say this because you grew up having most of the things you wanted.
You have been shown the good life and now search for intangible, family and maybe, spirtual fulfillment without concern if that is possible without the material means.
You don't have to work to feed a family, to pay off the hospital bills, etc.. of your parents in secondary school
You didn't grow up wishing you could be like your friends and go for drinks at starbucks and watch movies to celebrate each others birthdays all the time.
You don't have to budget when buying stuff or order the cheapest food or even bluff your friends that you're sick/full just to escape having to pay for a full meal at Ponderosa.
Do you even realise that I always order economical rice everytime we eat and it's all veg when we were in JC? It's because it's cheap and stomach filling. It's more worth it than ordering western food, fishball noodles or yong tau foo.
That is why you and I see it differently. To you family, children and being together is what life is all about and nothing else should affect it.
I too wish for such things BUT to me, ALL that is NOT possible if you do not achieve a certain level of financial achievement to provide for and care for those you love.
How can you feel happy when you cannot even help yourself and help others?
The scenes of coming home to a warm fireplace where the family cuddles around in bliss despite their poverty is only work of fiction and TV. If it were true, where did they get the money for the material stuff to start the fire anyway?
In reality, many families fall apart because they are not able to provide the material means that in turn bring on the intangible cohesion.
If you are so sure that even without the cash and financial independence and yet achieve the sense fulfillment. Then go ahead.
I can take a bet with you but you must first be willing to let go of what you have and not seek to be promoted or achieve material gains and just let things run their course.
You have to give up the luxuries like new phones, etc.. pay the bills, pay $600+ to your parents every month. In addition to many other changes.
After all, all that you seek is to be home, have children run to you and be with your family, regardless of whether the children have no new clothes and that the family has only 1 dish every meal.
I seek and do what I need to do because I know what is like. Ethical or not, the reason is still the same. I do not want my children and family and myself to still be in that same life.
I want them and I want myself to have the kind of life YOU have led."
I still remember all that till this day and I shall never forget all that he said because it chills me to the bone.
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