Sunday

Staying home today
lazing around and skipping the blading session
the rest are really active
need to finish up some work at home
juz gave maeve a ring
and she gave me a bad news
she ran into an accident last fri
and now she has no budget to travel aust with me
i am really unlucky
it's difficult to find a frenz to travel with me
juz when she is going to inform her boss to apply leave
this freaking accident has to happen
juz last mth when a gd frenz was travelling with me to bangkok
another gd frenz called and fuck me up
juz before i am going to leave for aiport
coz she feels the one travelling with me
shd have gone with the bf
instead of me
guess i will have to resume back my old plans
unless charles is able to take leave for few days
which i doubt so
or the other one from brisbane
changes his mind last min to travel with me
guess i will be a loner then
again travelling alone like wat the white guys always do
mebbi i shd juz beef up myself for travelling alone in future
less hazards and no need to beg frenzs to go with me
and no dissappointments
am envious at some of my gal frenzs
who seems to have no problem finding pple for travelling
and ton of guys even flocked to some of them to go with them
anyway i still thank to myself
this time round i am not going china
at least i feel safer
i always envious my frenzs
some who can resign due to min amount of stress
and sit at home whole year enjoying life
and relaxing themselves
or persue what they wan in life
but i canot afford to do that
i have bills and loans to pay
and my family brought up
does not allow me to enjoy such privileges
for many times been wanting to give up
juz throw that piece of letter at my boss
and walked out of the building
my colleagues and i are on the verge
to do juz that
there was once i almost printed out
the ready typed letter in office
and flucked it at my then boss's face
but i bite my tongue
and lips
and endured
and now for the 3rd year of hunting
i am still there
and have some freaking scums
telling me they have so much to do
but all i saw was
they have been spending the day idling
mom's been nagging whole morning
for some loss of wealth
she's juz stepped out of the house
phew
okie i am sprouting nonsense again
and stil couldn't figure out the layout configuration for fordue
bro called back from switzerland last nite
he's been in europe for a global incentive trip
and he recieved a global award in the gala dinner
for best customer supporting consultant
among all the worldwide offices
so happy for him
at least tt's one piece of good news
now he's holidaying in switzerland
wow wee yippee
later in the day mebbi i shd gave sis a call
din talk to her for 3 months
since that faithful day
wonder if she is still angry
but err.. as if i am not
tomolo i hope is a better day for me
hope so, at least no more pop quiz pls
hmm, start to feel the pain again
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