Beware.

Still slogging in the office.

Something was wrong in the system and gotta wait for ages before I can proceed for my bills.

This evening an old friend from long long time ago juz called.

I really dread hearing her voice.

Again bragging to me how happy her marriage life is and how much her hubby loves her, and again sneering at why am I still not have a boyfriend to love me now.

Sometimes I think these people are sick.

Some people who are struggling to create an impression on their already hopeless life, and making their friends who have outshined them look bad when they are the ones making an asshole out of themselves.

If they are so free, why dun they get their ass here to help me churned out my bills?

This friend of mine, I remembered, happily meeting her few years back to get the wedding invitation card from her, and to give her my wishes, only to end up being laughed at how skinny I was then, why no guy is chasing me and that I dun get as much luxuries in life as her coz her boyfriend was splurging on her and supposed to be rich coz he is in IT industry.

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If I am to be as fat as her (she's 3 times my size), I'll kill myself.

If I have a boyfriend who looks older than my dad, I'll jump off the cliff.

If I can enjoy the luxuries in life only to be given by my boyfriend, let me remain poor then.

If he is rich coz he is in IT, then I muz be damn rich now.

After her wedding dinner that night, when I thanked her and the groom for the invitation, she sneered at me again for not having a boyfriend and gave me that triumph smirk that she was getting married before me.

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I gave up. From then on, I kicked her out of my life.

Till this day I still remember that scorn on her face.

I never know how bitchy women can be till that day.

To think that I have known her since 4 years old, that she is the oldest friend I have ever known, that never once have I bragged that I was from a prestigious girl school during secondary, that never once did I bragged to her that I make it to university, never once have I laughed at her obesity and what so ever.

Hiak!

The more you want me dead, I shall live.

I will push, I will fight, I will squeeze, I will crawl, I will dodge my way through this challenging year and till the end of my life.

Beware.

Do NOT awaken the serpent.