Have a Happy 2005

2004 came and passed.

Just a few years ago, we were fussing over the new millennium and the y2k bug. Now we have stepped into 2005.

2004 has been an interesting year for me. Meet lots of new people. Make lots of new attempts in life. Lots of 'first time'. Partying alot (thanks to my colleagues). Many more weddings and newborns. It was an eventful year for me.

Last year has been quite an experience. I have learnt alot. Some lessons are hard. Some are interesting. It has been a good and bad year at the same time. hmm... ironic.

At the turn of the new year, most people will have already make new resolutions. So have you make yours already?

For me, I did not make any this year, coz either I never work towards it, or it will never happen.

Sounds defeating? but I feel it is more of not giving myself too much hope and expectations. Take things as they come. If they never come, at least the disappointment is reduced as I did not hope for it in the first place.

The end of 2004 has closed with sadness due to the tsunami disaster.

The start of 2005 has been the world helping the victims of the tsunami.

Mine has been quite peaceful, except with some disturbing decisions that I may have made wrongly last year, that still leave me searching for an answer now. I hope I am not being penalised for it.

And the start of the year already has a shocking news in stored for me.

In the middle of one night last week, I was woken by an sms from my phone. Feeling puzzled, I crawled out of my warm and comfortable bed, thinking that it must be a delayed sms, as not many of my friends will sms me in middle of the night, and my current work scope no longer need me to be on 24 hours standby anymore.

'... jean fainted on the bus this eve... did scan and found a tumor ... '.

I was jolted awake immediately. No.. not again... not another one.

2 years ago, I have lost a friend in a tragic mrt accident. Same age as me, young and happily married. Now, not another one. Though tumor may not necessary be malignant, but the sound of it is disturbing. very disturbing.

Later in the day, I gave her a visit at SGH. The moment I stepped into her ward, she was sitting up, giving me a weak and awkward smile. Then she broke into a wider grin, showing me the missing tooth. God... the fall from the faint or the fits she had has knocked out one of her incisors.

Seeing her putting on a brave smile and trying very hard to look nonchalant, my heart just went out to her.

This is a friend whom I have known for years, in fact for a decade. We have been through college together. Crying over guys together. Hugging and jumping together when we received our A' levels results. Watching her getting married last year... and yes... getting married last year.

She has just embarked on a new journey in life and now this...

After giving her a good hug and a pat on her shoulders, she disclosed that the results of the scan would not be out till next week. In the meantime, we can do nothing but wait. yes... wait.

So much so for the start of the new year. I have received some good news, some bad ones. What about you?

The end of 2004 has been wonderful for me. Well... at least the last day of the year, I get to spend time with a close friend and welcome a new year ahead of us together. Not bad for the turn of the new year, though the day has ended in sadness for me.

Now we are into the 21th day of the new year. Ironically, I have already looked forward to the end of 2005. By then, some matters in my life should already have a conclusion, or perhaps, I need not even have to wait till the end of the year to find out then.

I will face many more challenges in the year ahead of me. What about you?

Happy or sad, smooth sailing or tough.

I wish my family and friends to have a fantastic year ahead, that they will be healthy and their lives be filled with lots of happiness and surprises.

For people whom I know were looking for new opportunities in life, may their wishes be fufilled this year.

For friends who are trying new, risky attempts in life, I encourage them to go all out to do it and give them my full support. After all, a close friends once said to me, ' ... try if you want. at least even if it fails, you know you have tried and will not have any regrets...'

No matter how the year will turn out to be for them (well.. the forecast for me for coming lunar new year is bad), at least have a safe 2005.

For my friend who is sick, I pray for her that the result will bring us good news.

For passersby who has happened to stumbled upon this page, have a happy and healthy year in 2005.

Chloe